Thursday, April 06, 2006
Well it was a great weekend- the boys and I had a blast at Six Flags on friday.. It was a mad house but we went on some ride and eventually got our passes processed... We stayed to see the fireworks at 10 pm and while they were going off the boys go airbrushed tatoos - couldn't pass up the bargain of 4.50 for any size/color... I am just THE coolest mom! *L* Saturday Dilen got his yellow belt - teacher said his form was very good but he needs to get more serious and less goofy in class... Deven did wonderful at bowling... Karate starts again on the 22nd - Deven is only a high white and Dilen is one step up as a yellow - after this next session they are doing a short 6 week session which Deven will take alone (or Dilen can take for refresher only) so that he can catch up...
E took the boys with a friend on Sunday to Six Flags - they had a very good time and hit a bunch of rides...
E went to doc this past week for a physical and blood test results... Seems his drinking has really started to have an effect on him - liver numbers were over 300 and should be around 70... Other numbers were high too... At first he told me that doc said he needed to cut back to atleast 1/3 of his drinking otherwise he's not gonna last but 10 yrs... THEN he called me later and said the truth was he's in the beginnings of organ shut down from his drinking and has to take some med for 3 months and go back for a follow up... Ok am I supposed to be shocked cause I am not... I know this probably sounds heartless but I tried for years to get him to cut back or stop drinking but he didn't - he just got nastier and nastier with me to the point he's killed pretty much any feelings I had for him... Sadly I know he's not gonna cut back/stop drinking so his time on earth is gonna be pretty short and for the boys I am sad cause they do love their dad - but in a way I know our lives will be better eventually too...
You know a few months back I could have told you how much I hate him and how insane he makes me, etc... But I recently managed to find a peace in me and now there's only indifference to him... Life goes on... I guess it is true that the opposite of love ISN"T hate but indifference - hate indicates passion/feeling... The only thing of my entire adventure with E that I truely appreciate are the boys... A friend just found out she's pregnant and it was a woops, surprise!! As we were all congratulating her a couple ladies commented about their surprises and how now they couldn't imagine life without their newest addition - how true that is... Ethen was my woops and as I look at him I know he's here for a reason... He adds a sparkle of joy to our lives every day and I could't imagine him NOT being here...
Ok I guess I have rambled on enough for now... I really need to get some rest - the time change has really kicked my butt this week and I am soo tired... Til next time..
E took the boys with a friend on Sunday to Six Flags - they had a very good time and hit a bunch of rides...
E went to doc this past week for a physical and blood test results... Seems his drinking has really started to have an effect on him - liver numbers were over 300 and should be around 70... Other numbers were high too... At first he told me that doc said he needed to cut back to atleast 1/3 of his drinking otherwise he's not gonna last but 10 yrs... THEN he called me later and said the truth was he's in the beginnings of organ shut down from his drinking and has to take some med for 3 months and go back for a follow up... Ok am I supposed to be shocked cause I am not... I know this probably sounds heartless but I tried for years to get him to cut back or stop drinking but he didn't - he just got nastier and nastier with me to the point he's killed pretty much any feelings I had for him... Sadly I know he's not gonna cut back/stop drinking so his time on earth is gonna be pretty short and for the boys I am sad cause they do love their dad - but in a way I know our lives will be better eventually too...
You know a few months back I could have told you how much I hate him and how insane he makes me, etc... But I recently managed to find a peace in me and now there's only indifference to him... Life goes on... I guess it is true that the opposite of love ISN"T hate but indifference - hate indicates passion/feeling... The only thing of my entire adventure with E that I truely appreciate are the boys... A friend just found out she's pregnant and it was a woops, surprise!! As we were all congratulating her a couple ladies commented about their surprises and how now they couldn't imagine life without their newest addition - how true that is... Ethen was my woops and as I look at him I know he's here for a reason... He adds a sparkle of joy to our lives every day and I could't imagine him NOT being here...
Ok I guess I have rambled on enough for now... I really need to get some rest - the time change has really kicked my butt this week and I am soo tired... Til next time..
